This has been quite a weekend. It has been filled with a range of emotions and feelings. I have said good-bye to family and said hello to family, I've felt joy and I have felt pain, I have cried and I have laughed. It is almost as though I have been on the sidelines this weekend watching the world change before my eyes. I'm not sure if the world is changing or I am changing. Maybe change is just constant for everyone and we don't always recognize it or simply choose not to acknowledge it. I knew that I would never be the same after this experience with cancer, but I didn't realize that life would be a new discovery for me. I can't quite put the feelings into words and perhaps as I continue on my journey it will become clearer.

I have been struggling with the aches and pains today in my joints and bones. The tingling and numbness in my toes and feet seems stronger this time as well. Like I have said before, I know that my pain will be manageable in just a couple of days. There are far too many people in this world who have to live with pain on a daily basis with no relief in sight. I truly realize how blessed I am.

At least my blood counts remained steady and I was able to sit in the "cool" chair (under the air vent) during treatment. It really helped when the hot flashes started to hit! And the greatest part is knowing that I only have to do this one more time. Just think, in two weeks I will be done with chemo!