Wednesday, February 14, 2007
It's All Good
At the 2.5 year mark, my tumor markers are holding steady in the normal range. No sign of cancer. No cancer-related issues. See you in six months. Thank God and thank all those who have offered prayers and good thoughts.
Even though I try to believe that these check ups don't stress me, apparently I was wrong. I have a swollen right side of my face from what appears to be grinding my teeth in my sleep. I enflamed the nerves which are pressing against my sinuses which are apparently a little infected. As a wise woman once said, "It's always something
Even still, it's a good day. A very good day.
Labels: moving on after cancer
What Are the Odds?
I have done a lot of confessing over the last couple of years; however, I have yet one more confession to make. I love quiz shows. I like the challenge of trying to answer correctly questions from a variety of categories. Besides, it gives me something to do with the useless and trivial knowledge I hold onto in my head(despite my ability to maintain much else in there). I was watching the newest quiz show 1 vs. 100
. For those of you who have not had the pleasure, it is a show where the contestant is asked a question along with a "mob" of 100 people. The goal is for the contestant to continue answering questions correctly while eliminating members of the mob who answer incorrectly. Of course what kind of quiz show would not include money, drama, and suspense; however, the questions do not register a high level of difficulty and are based more on pop culture. Interestingly enough, some of the mob may be of a specific trade, or may be models from a specific product line, or there may be celebrities, etc. A little something thrown in to make it interesting I suppose.
I enjoyed this show until I noticed on two occasions the way in which attention was brought to the expected probability of whether or not a person of a given trade would or should answer correctly. For example, a large number of mob members were teachers (K-12). The expectation was for the teachers to hang in there the longest providing correct answer after correct answer, because, as we know, teachers know everything, right? Not so. In fact, the group of janitors lasted longer. Imagine the shock and the shame of those teachers to be beaten by janitors. Of all people! For the record I teach only part-time and at the college level and by trade I am a government professional, but isn't that an oxymoron (did someone say moron?).
I can still hear the applause for the avid reader who made it to the final four. What a shock to see such success since he was a room service waiter. How could a room service waiter possibly know if Lindsay Lohan has had a DUI? Or if Larry King has been married more times than King Henry VIII? Really? Aren't you still finding it hard to believe that a room service waiter is an avid reader? Ugh . . .
Sure, it is kind of fun to know if a teacher can pass a quiz, right? But isn't it a sad comment on society that we are a surprised when a waiter can succeed on a game show? We are full of stereotypes whether it be gender or class or race or appearance or anything else. We tend to categorize people into boxes and make assumptions about their abilities or whether or not we will like themlong before we truly meet them. Not only does this show encourage stereotypes, it promotes stereotyping as acceptable behavior. Oh, but not completely. It wouldn't be so brash as to have a Middle Eastern mob expecting them to answer questions about making IED's or having a mob of homsexual males answer grooming questions. In fact it picks on the less broad issues, yet still the the issues that further drive communities apart and encourage classism. You know, the things that drive the ratings right up and increase revenue from commercial sponsors.
The only thing that would make me dislike this show more is to see the mob filled with breast cancer survivors in October. Or worse yet, a mob with various groups of cancer survivors. Because you know that breast cancer survivors would easily take those pesky testicular cancer survivors.In case you were wondering, no, Lindsay Lohan surprisingly has not had a DUI and it is Larry King (7) who had more wives , though he didn't behead them like King Henry VIII (6) - at least not yet anyway.
Labels: odds and ends
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
Oops, I Didn't Mean to Spill my Coffee on You, but my Fingers Were Crossed
There comes a time when words escape me. I should know the signs by now. I can’t express myself, I don’t want to talk about cancer, commercials touting “I’m ready to start my chemotherapy” make me cry, I find my jaw clenched the majority of the time, I’m a bit agitated (and not by too much caffeine), I can’t make eye contact with women with extremely short hair (even if it is a chosen style), and then I go to the lab for blood tests. Even though I had a reprieve for the last six months, I should know by now that oncology follow-ups get to me no matter how much I try to believe I am stronger than that. They never get easier. Waiting is never palatable.
I get my results next week. Fingers and toes crossed (even if it makes me drive funny and walk with a strange double limp).
Labels: cancer, moving on after cancer